the whole day was so empty to me

i jus watched 17 again..
it talks about how a couple who was on the verge of divorcing and at last got back together because the husband went back and saw his past as a seventeen year old teenager and realised that he went the wrong way..luckily he did it in time and saved the relationship..
must be thinking how contradicting it is to be left in a situtation i am in now and still go watch this kind of shows..hahas
but i guess it also shows that things that is shown in movies are always the opposite of life..
it seems easy but the truth is in life it never is..
today tells me sth..
there is no such thing as a happy ending..
nor is there forever love..
these things are only dreams and forever will be..
but at least i had part of my dream coming true before realising that its jus a trick

jus wan to say thanks to my beloved sherlyn for being there for me=)
even though u see me in this state doesnt mean u will end up in this state hor!!
=)) i noe ur dream will come true and u'll have ur happy ending..
same to jeanne too!! cannot become nun!! i become nun in replacement of u la=))


guess i have to stay on track and force myself to concentrate and do my homework tmr..
now try to get enogh sleep and recover..

Labels: i'll hope to be fine~~

didnt noe that u cant wait to tell everyone that u are single now..
haha..
this is so disappointing..
but then again who am i to say anything right?

so 22 wasnt a really nice and auspicious number after all huh..

Labels: i'll hope to be fine~~

went to YOG 1 year countdown at the padang yesterday=)
the people there super duper high de lor=)
hehe..
so ya i had fun with my crazy screaming sister there=)
my brother as usual is like so lame and not fun de..
hahas!!
(photos on facebook)


misses you load=) wish i could jus spend a day with u without worries=))


sad about yesterday seeing u like that=(
wish i could help and say the right things to make u feel better
nice to hear that u were better yesterday night=)

yes PIGS ROCKS ALOT!
hahas!

so i'm now like the mother pig of this pig club of ours
jeanne--> darling zhu
sherlyn--> darling pig
=)
cute right??
of course la! got me wad=P
hehe

my sis says wan to be little pig=))
so one more family member=))
LOVES ALL MY PIGS!!!
and the father pig too=P

(cant upload photo so too bad..see facebook ba)

yes OUCH

ouch 1:
-my right leg today got rashes then it was so itchy and painful this morning=((

ouch 2:
-my right finger hurts alot=((
-dunno when i hurt my finger but when i was showering jus now and when the water was rushing down my hand, my finger hurts so so much..
-after that it got even more red after my shower when i was doing my maths reflection and as i wrote, my finger got more and more painful=(
-wished i could tell u how i felt but i figured u were too busy outside so i didnt tell u
-however i'm like lucky its better now tt's why i'm blogging=) *slight pain*

ouch 3:
-disappointed in the morning because i told myself last night that u'll be nice and make it a point to wake up early jus so that i'll get my wish granted
-i noe u must be thinking that it was me who said u dont have to come de but even so, there's still the phone

ouch 4:
-saded that sherlyn didnt tell me her stuff tell this morning but still BFF right?=)) nono its BBBFF!!(best best best friends forever)

ouch 5:
-when u felt upset because u got caught, i tried my very best to give in to u and to make u happy
-tried to make u smile by saying nice nice stuff
-tried everything i could
-but a cake still made u feel better

ouch 6:
-while i was doing my homework jus now in the living room, the tv series was showing a scene: children playing a music video made by them to their mother
-it was so so so so so super touching tears formed up in my eyes they almost flowed out
-missed the times u gave me so many sweet surprises
-missed feeling all the love u would shower me

ouch 7:
-the thing i feared when i gave u a second chance is like slowly appearing
-hope it would stop
-hope that i would continue to contain, forgive and forget
but i hope u noe that this is really the last time i would try..if this fails even though i try my best, i'm going to give up fully and it would be of no return
hope u would understand more

Labels: i wish upon the star..

WENT TO NDP YESTERDAY!!
yup i went to ndp AGAIN!
hehe=)
all thanks to my grandma's fren's son i get to see the president of s'pore and not the stimulaated one=)
so since there was only 2 tickets me and my sis went in
we sat at the yellow sector (same sector as the last time i went with sherlyn)
performance was like almost the same but yesterday's atmosphere was like so so much more high!!!
hahas i think its also because of the group of people behind us who kept shouting and screaming
1st time see my sis so crazy screaming away too=)
now i noe how crazy she can get le=))
want to post photos here but sadly i cant coz the blogger dont let me so pls go facebook see if u all wan bah=))
so ya i hope everyone enjoyed their long weekend?
i sure did!!



sad..sch starts again tmr..
back to stressed and boring life at sch=((
hope to get more love and motivation so i'll be able to carry on and perserve all the way!!!=))
LOVES SHERLYN JEANNE AND MY SIS
LOVES LOVES HIM=P

worse national day celebration ever!!!
miss Yishun town so so much because its so so much more fun!!!
miss the parade every year..
now i realise u only would appreciate things after u dont get to see them anymore=(
worse things is tt everyone else release from sch after celebration we still need study=(
conclusion: get out of YJ asap!

after sch we went kbox!!=)
hahas my 1st time there..
although like i didnt sing much because i dont really like chinese songs, but still enjoyed myself alot laughing=)
no photos here because all in sherlyn's camera=)
found out that jeanne is like quite high and crazy de?=)



then went for 4/5 class outing which was totally fun and it brings back alot of memories..
if only everyone was still studying together..how nice it would be=(
MISS U GUYS IN CLASS
sadly i couldnt join them at shermaine's house but i sure had fun see all the familiar faces=)

tt jessica no voice still talked to us..how sweet=) hope u get well soon!! (and hope ur blueblack goes away too)

thanks gwen for taking many photos=)

sharon should eat MORE!

shermaine is still that white=)

vivian still so quite

and yanhan keeps blocking my view lor!

sherlyn still want to hug me even though she sees me every day=) but ya i noe she jus LOVES me=P
another class outing soon leh!!
and if can end of the year can book chalet??=)



finally i wan to say tt i was happy seeing u..even though like a little sad coz there were unhappy times, i sure enjoyed looking at the stuff with 2 sides with u=P

Labels: loves him loads

thanks so much for the surprise and so so so sweet!!!=P

Labels: LOVE YOU=)

feeling a little mixed inside now..
firstly is because i failed maths test which i really studied so hard for..
and then when i see is all stupid mistakes i even more sad..2nd test for me again=(

secondly because of wad happened yesterday..
when i found out about those stuff which i really wished i didnt have to bother nor care
then when i see u fb today again i jus really feel like so left out from ur life..
those army people who came to talk at our sch today said that we have to be understanding to our loved ones who are in ns but its really difficult..
sometimes i do wonder to myself if i really am important..
i noe u always tell me that u love me and that u care and that i'm the most important but dont u also think that actions speaks louder than words?
its okay la..
i guess i'm jus too sensitive?=)
maybe its jus me..
maybe i care too much and think too much too..
i'm trying really hard to make things go on smoothly..
really trying..
i hope i wont have to be tt heartbrokened again as i was the last time because it is really going to be the last time that i'm going to forgive that kind of heartache..
so i'm still going to be the best for u..i hope u'll do the same=)
i noe u love me and i do too=)

PROJECT WORK IS KILLING ME!!!!

reasons:
-there are like irritating members in my group who jus wont co-operate(ya like i guess my grp mates noe who)
-free-riders
-always MIA
-when they sometimes dont MIA, shit work is given
-when u call them, they dont pick up
-ask to go do research when school ends early, runs away
-suppose to discuss, use eye power to do work
-can zip their mouths for like so long they dont feel uneasy
-when meet teacher i think their body there, their mind in fantasy island

and then i think about it and wonder if they would even feel guilty about behaving this way and showing so lousy attitude!!
if they at the end of the day cause my project work results to suck, i will curse them man!
i really hope they really feel guilty inside and cant sleep at night=)
mean? i noe but how else to deal with people like them??
oh well i jus hope that they'll get their punishment in a way or another=))

loves sherlyn for doing so much work with me!!!!
derek ar..hmmm..should be thanked for too la..

Labels: love paul loads=)